On Finding Me Again

Today is a big day! After being in a blogging hiatus for a little over two months, I finally decided it’s time to start finishing all the half written posts I collected and actually hit the publish button. After all, I owe you the reason/reasons  why I became M-I-A (missing in action).

 

So, what kept me from writing?

For starters, I confess that I started 2018 on a shaky ground.

Yes, I wrote a rough plan and my 5 goals for the year. I even went further and jot down specific ways to reach them. During my days as a trainer, the plan and goals I made were detailed and feasible enough to be accomplished.

But something very important was missing though. My heart was simply NOT into it.

I was struggling to focus on anything.

 

I feel lost and inadequate especially when I see how happy some of the others appear to be.

Oh, and all those “How I Made It, You Can Do What I Did,” things online didn’t help at all. In fact, it just added more chaos in my inbox. I even lost countless productive hours listening to videos which at the end asked me to buy a course or book.

I am not going to sugarcoat it. Those feelings were killing me each day.

Then, I was in a car accident last March. While I thank God that nothing really serious happened — the neck and back pains from it not only drives me insane but required 3 hours of physical therapy visits every week.

 

What I am doing about it? 

“Remember to take care of yourself. You can’t pour from an empty cup.”

By the second half of June, I finally took that phrase to heart. Instead of pushing myself to do what others think I should do, I stopped and did my best to find me — the REAL ME.

Then, I made peace with myself.

No more compromising my own feelings. I gave myself permission to do what my heart is telling me. I’m allowing myself to work at my own pace.

For it is only when I am true to what I am, I can start to focus on what I want and I can see what I am capable of.  That’s when my true happiness comes out.

 

 

5 comments

  • I flat out announced at the beginning of June that I would be sporadic on social media and my blog and that I wouldn’t be sending my email newsletter. Instead of fighting a losing battle (I’ve been blogging seriously since 2014 and not gaining ground to make it an actual money maker), I’m spending my summer going to the beach with my family, reading, working my Thirty-One business, spontaneous day trips, etc. It has been the best decision ever!

    All that to say, do what you need to for you. That’s the important thing. Having been in an accident that messed up my back, focus on the PT and the rest and self-care.

    (I also hate those time waster videos that end up just wanting you to buy a course.)

  • I’m glad you figured out what you needed to do. As a sufferer of neck and back pain, I know it adds to the daily frustrations of life in general. Take as long as you need to get back on track. Getting healthy and family come first. Best wishes!!

    • Rozelyn De Sagun

      Thank you so much Cathie. I really appreciate all the support you’ve given me. I wish I could do the same for you too.

  • I’m sorry about your accident but so glad it has a happy ending – Thank you for this reminder! I am greatly encouraged. Wish you all even more blessings! ❤️

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